Charlie

Charlie is tiny!!! He only comes up to my knee. So cute I have never met an 8 year old dog that looked so much like a puppy. When he barks it sounds more like a goose honk and he now follows me everywhere I go in the house. He is fluffy and soft and poofy, he doesn't mess in the house, he doesn't go through the trash, he can't jump so he doesn't get on the furniture, and he is friendly to everyone. I can't think of how he could get better. After meeting him I have decided he is definitely a chow corgi mix not rottweiler like I assumed. His ears are floppy and soft. I never ever want to give him up!

Charlie

I don't care what my dad says. I am in love with his furry face. How can I not get him?

Rain Rain Go Away

Sigh Rainy Thursday. Thank you for making my day so much harder. Mother nature could have at least tried to cheer me up with sunshine but no, she just had to match my mood. My electric bills are through the roof and I don't even have internet or tv. Then on top of paying 200 my roomate apparently wants to pay more and has been setting the heat to 70 when I am either sleeping or not home, then avoiding me like i am going to tell her her bf has died in the war. So of course my room smells terrible because I can't open a window and I am sweating in my bed (that is totally getting fixed tonight when I go on a cleaning spree). Then the one thing I had that made this week wonderful, that Charlie the dog is now available, was taken away from me by my parents. Thinking I was telling a mom who was so on the same page as me that I was getting a dog my mom turned on me and told my dad that not only was I getting a dog I was planning on introducing it to Zoe. So I get the call from my dad that 1. I can't get a dog because i am going through life changes right now, 2. If I do it can never come home with me and I will have to find a pet sitter, 3. The vet bills will be horrendous, 4. What is the dog going to do if I am in night classes and 5. He understands that I am really feeling lonely right now because Jarrod is in Blacksburg, I am not talking to any of my friends, my sister refuses to spend time with me, my roomate is avoiding me, I haven't made any new friends in Richmond but is it really fair to get a dog because of it? So at this point I started crying because well I had already come to the conclusion that I have been pretty pathetic lately while on the way to Lowes the second time to get blinds(which didn't fit of course). I know he felt bad but F him. Does it look like I really need this right now. My chinchilla died and I am all alone in Richmond because I can't get off my ass and go out. And I was having a great day and I was in a great mood until I came home and my house was empty after I had left a note for the roomate asking her to wait around and talk to me about electricity. Then of course after sobbing my eyes out for an hour or so Jarrod calls and tells me yes you are being impulsive and this might not be a good idea. AHHH!

So I woke up this morning, hard enough to get out of bed when I am exhausted and I can't open my eyes from the puffiness then on top of that it is rainy day. Needless to say waking up was slow and the traffic was the cherry on my awesome Thursday. Im sure today is going to be awesome.

Heat Wars

So love the new place, love the new roomate, love the new rent, holly crap is that my electric bill!!!! Magically after last month the electric bill for my townhouse went from $84 to $186. WTF!!!! I changed 80% of the lightbulbs in the house to energy conserving, I am never here on weekends and my roomate is always working. How the hell did the bill go up 100?!!!On top of it all the old rere roomie never sent back the paperwork to the lease and the electric bill is in the other old roomies name. My hands are tied I am technically not suppose to be living here and yet I have ridiculous bills.

On top of it all the same thing as usual is happening I am having a themostat war with my roomate. I come home and change the heat to 65 or 60 if I am not going to be home for a while. She cranks it up to 70!!! that is shorts and tshirts weather, plus our thermostat is downstairs which has ceiling vents. MY ROOM WAS LIKE FRICKING 75 DEGREES ON SUNDAY MORNING! I should not have to wake up in a hot sweat when it is 35 degrees outside. Of course instead of having time to talk about it my roomate has a second job so I turn it down while she isn't here only to go to bed and have her come home and turn it to 70. So Im ready to fight about it because I am dying in my room it is sooo hot and she is cold. I am thinking I need to bring up a room switch or just tear her hair out because she doesn't care about my feelings.

Then back to the ridiculously high electric bill. What was she doing when I was out of town? How many nights has she switched the heat up? Is that why I have to pay 90 freaking dollars when I kept the heat at 55 and replaced all the light bulbs to energy efficient. I want to scream. Everyone knows I hate being hot. of course except my roomate who is turning into the roomate from hell. I should get out while I can!

Not doing to good today

I feel so sick today that I just do not feel like working. Truth is that it probably isn't that I am sick at all its just that I am exhausted, either way I want to go home. Last night, yet again I decided it would be a good idea to wait until after family guy to be over. Family guy was almost worth it. Of course it was hilarious as usual but I almost fell asleep at the wheel multiple times. I had to stop twice in an only 3 hour drive which is ridiculous and usually avoided because I hate wasting time like that. On top of being exhausted and my soda doing nothing, I called Jarrod multiple times to have someone to talk to to keep me up and he never answered. This of course drove me insane. I wanted to cry but my eyes were too tired, I wanted to sleep but beds on either side were too far away.

I want to go!!!

It is almost 4pm on a friday afternoon and as usual without warning my brain has shut itself off. It isn't that I do not want to do work it is that I can't. My brain won't let me. Getting through the last appointment prep was torture and now I have to find some meanial task to keep myself occupied? So hard.

I could address some more Christmas cards or take a class on Ameriprise University but I can't do anything. All I want to do it run out to my car, get to blacksburg and hug Jarrod. not going to happen for another hour but that is what my brain will play over and over and over.

Today is also my sister's 21st birthday. She was supposed to come to blacksburg with me so we could celebrate with cheap drinks and giant marguaritas but no as usual she backed out last minute and left me to my own devices. Which brings me back to my point I have had in the past, I desperately need to make new friends in the area who can join me for the most boring ride in the world. I cant wait for when this is a trip I make only a few time a year as opposed to a few times a month. I know every house, every truck stop, every mountain along the way and it only leads to driving black outs. Where i wake up 20 minutes later and 30 miles further with no recollection of driving those 30 miles. O so safe.

Sigh I really want a dog. Why does it have to cost so much to get one!!! My roomate is never around and I guess Im being selfish because I want a friend. But I looked into it and I could spend 300 on chinchillas or 300 on a dog. Either way I definitely need to sell my cage. I could use the money and if I get 2 chinchillas I need a bigger cage. Sigh so much to think about.